It's funny how things change. How one minute you can be so close to someone that you feel like nothing will seperate you and then all of a sudden things are different. Maybe it was things unsaid, maybe it was problems never solved or simply a misunderstanding. Whatever it is, it hurts. It hurts not knowing why suddenly you aren't talking anymore. It hurts not knowing if it was something you said or did, or not. It hurts feeling stupid, like it is all your fault. What's worse is looking at that person in the eyes, remembering memories and conversations and realizing everything is different now. Therefore you avoid them, you avoid any eye contact just to make it easier on your already fragile heart. They say "everything has a season", but what if you aren't ready for the season to be over? You are not ready to stop talking, to stop giving each other knowing looks, and having a sense of forever. And all you want is to have just one more conversation with them, one more time to look in their eyes and have a sense of security. Sounds silly, but everyone at some point will go through this in their life. But how do you handle it? I suppose you continue living your life, going to school, sports, family outings, and whatever you may do on a daily basis. But at some point in your day, that person will come across your mind, and again you will be reminded of the hurt. Perhaps only time can mend this wound, but until things are worked out with that person, you will feel a sense of emptiness, an emptiness that can only be filled with Christ. Lean on Him. Trust Him. But most of all remember this: He loved you first, He loves you most, and He loves you best and nothing can change that.
{Chelsea}
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